For a few years I’ve would tell myself ‘I’m going to upgrade my wardrobe’. Well that was my sophomore year in college and I’m 25 and have graduated now. I still haven’t really updated anything. I managed to donate most of my wearable clothing. Now I’m down to clothes that I can’t wear in public, either they are too small, outdated, or plain ugly.
I still struggle to commit to shopping for clothes. I always end up buying food. I don’t have the patience to go shopping anymore. Especially with my body weight being what it is. I just feel insecure and tired of trying to find anything that will fit and look good on me. I hope other mommies can relate because this mommy is in desperate need of a new look!
I am excited to see my hair slowly getting on it’s A game.
I love being a mommy and having a partner that wants to create a healthy lifestyle. Everything is about moderation. I don’t do any extreme “diets” nor do I starve myself. I eat what I like but make sure to pay attention to what I eat. I may indulge here and there but I never lose sight of my overall goal. Becoming a mother has motivated me to not only learning how to cook more meals but also learning how to cook Cambodian food. I want to be able to cook my cultures food for my children. I want to be able to pass along recipes to my children. I grew up eating Cambodian food and look forward to being able to feed my children all of the dishes I loved as a kid. I love food and I know my children will love food too, Emilia already does 😁
A few months after Emilia was boring my hair starting falling out in clumps. Around 6-7 months I started noticing my hair growing back especially towards the front of my hair. Eight and a half months now and my hair is looking fuller. My baby hairs are longer and I don’t look like a 5th grader that chopped her own bangs because she was upset with her parents. I have been going back and forth about dying my hair so my curls will pop more. I’m just so nervous, I’ve always had dark one tone hair. My curls are so nice though and I really want to go for something a little different.
Shea Moisture curling soufflé
I liberally applied bounce curl light gel throughout my wet hair in two sections. Clumped my hair then proceeded to scrunch it. Then soon after scrunching it I used my diffuser and started diffusing it.
I have to fight hard to be able to look on the brighter side. There are many times in the past when I would just be paralyzed from a bad day. I wouldn’t be up to do anything for a few days. I would cry often and only saw the bad in every day. Years have passed and I am 25 now although I still have my moments my bounce back time is much quicker. Often times what kept me from optimism was fear. The fear of disastrous happening. ‘What if that?’ ‘What if this?’ ‘But that could go wrong.’ I was always expecting the worse. I let the fear of the future dictate everything about me.
After a few years I found myself turning to faith. I remember there was a point when I didn’t feel like I deserved to pray to God because I went so many years without doing so. I went years without praying for guidance or even giving thanks for what I had. I’m sure I’ve talked about this before but I find myself back here when I life gets tough again. My emotions get bottled up and I don’t know what to do. I want to cry but it’s difficult to cry. This is how I vent. This is part of my stress reliever.
“When life gets tough, the tough get going” It took me years to understand that saying, even longer to apply it to my own life. It’s always easier said than done because at the moment when you are dealing with problems it’s difficult to think straight. At that moment you are going off of emotion which 99% of the time is not a good idea. I am still working on thinking first and acting second.