Have you ever been so overcome with emotion you just didn’t know what to do? This time my feelings were that of anger.
Recently the story or Cyntoia Brown has been surfacing on social media. At first I just read the small paragraphs written on Instagram. Then I started to Google her story to learn more. What I found I just couldn’t hold in my disgust.
Cyntoia Brown was convicted of murder for shooting and killing a man who intentionally picked her up for a Sonic to have sex for money. Things took a wrong turn and afraid that the man was reaching for a gun or something to hurt her she had no choice but to defend herself (or so that’s my opinion) and shoot him resulting in his death. She was being sex-trafficked, she was 16 years old at the time in 2004 and was sentenced to a ridiculous amount of time in jail and wouldn’t be eligible for parole until the age of 69!
I found her documentary on YouTube and found myself so amazed by Miss Brown. I couldn’t believe her poise and sophistication even during her sentencing and the injustice. She’s 29 now. She cut off her hair because she said she didn’t want to be pretty anymore. She said being pretty was what got her into trouble and it attracted terrible men. I found her strength and courage so admirable.
I can’t imagine my daughter being in her position. As a mother not being able to protect and save your child from such terrible pain and injustice. How is it that Miss Brown was already used and abused for so long and have the courage to finally defend herself from a man who had no good intentions from the start, be locked up and punished?
Sex trafficking is real. It still continues today and it makes me so afraid for those women who finally get the courage to fight back and seek help. What if they end up lol Cyntoia? Is it because he was a white man? Was it because he was a man? Apparently the prosecutor’s argument was that man was now dead and didn’t get a chance to share his side. What side does he have?! You knew this 16 year old girl was prostituting. You knew what your intentions were.
I’m sure her story has reached millions more. So what about the girls who are currently stuck as sex slaves? When they see this story, what makes you think they will have courage to fight back? If they don’t get killed by the horrible people enslaving them then they’ll be punished by the law.
I know I can’t do much or if anything all to help Cyntoia. But I pray for her and her family. I admire her strength and ability to keep her sanity in prison.
These are the type of days I pray for more strength. I pray for courage. I pray for wisdom. These are also days I thank God a little more.
I am learning to speak victory into my life instead of defeat. I shall not speak ill of my life. I shall not let negativity dictate my mood. I shall have faith. I will practice patience and trust in God. I know He does not bring me to something that I can’t get through. He will help me get through it, better, happier, and even more blessed. I am a child of God and I am highly favored.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I am at a stage of my life where I feel stagnant. I’m unsure where to go. I long for a better professional life but struggle with finding my path to accomplish this. I struggle with finding out how to tie my passion in with financial stability. I just want to be able to create and from my creations support my family. It tears me up inside because I have slowly started feeling this way and I don’t know where to start. I dream of becoming a creator like I see via the internet yet I don’t know where to start and lack the confidence. I pray that you help me find my way soon. I want Emilia to be proud of me and I want to be able to give Emilia a life of joy excitement and stability. I want to show Emilia that she should follow her dreams and work hard.
In Jesus’ name,
What can you do when you start to lose hope? When you feel like your prayers have not been answered? How do you prepare yourself for a battle you are too scared to face?
How do I continue to be the strong person I am supposed to be when I feel so defeated and weak?
Truth is, I’m terrified.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Tomorrow is the start of a very scary path. I’m not entirely sure how I’m supposed to handle this. I know I have to be strong. I am terrified. I’m scared of what the outcome might be. I’m scared that I won’t make the right decisions. I’m scared of the unknown. I pray that you are in there with me providing strength. I pray that you are in there with me providing courage to ask and say what I want. I am trying to do the right thing – the right thing for my daughter. But I am terrified. Did I fight hard enough to prevent this from happening? Did I voice myself loud enough so that people can hear me? Will I be letting my daughter down? Will odds be against me? Will I lose everything? I’m scared. I know I shouldn’t be. I am trying my hardest to get myself together and walk forward in your light and guidance. Please be with me tomorrow and shield me from anything that is not good for me and my daughter. Please protect us from those who wish to harm us and that you know will not benefit us.
In Jesus’ Name,
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for waking me up this morning. I can feel my anxieties trying to overpower my being. I pray to you to help ease my anxiety and calm my spirits. I pray for this because I need to have a clear mind and be able to be strong without feeling intimindated by the world. I pray that you continue to provide me with strength. I know at this point I may not be strong enough. I may not be able to fight but I pray to you that you give me strength and courage to stand up for what I believe in and fight until I come out victoriuos. With this fight I may need to be more financially stable so I pray that you continue to bless me financially and always help me find a way. I know I am the least perfect of your children but I know you still love me. I pray that you continue to watch over my family and loved ones. Keep us from harm and the devil’s arms. Thank you for always being my peace. Please continue to shield me from those who may do me harm or try to rob me of my happiness.
In Jesus’ name, Amen
Dear Lord Jesus:
Thank you for waking me up this morning. Thank you for watching over me and my family throughout the night. I ask that you continue to watch over us today. I ask that you guide us through our battles and obstacles. We love you and are forever thankful for your loving grace.
I have imagined my life very different. I always had a plan for how I would live my life – when things would happen, who would be in my life. These past few years really took me by surprise. God had other plans for me. God wanted me to learn and grow. God needed me to see that I was not living the life he intended for me. Although this path God is putting on is tough, some days unbearable, I know he has not left me alone. He gave me people to help me through it all. He gave me people who love me. He gave me people to teach me. I just pray for strength to fight these battles and trials that you are putting me through so that I will become the woman you have always meant for me to be.
Please forgive me for my sins and guide me to live a life that honors you.