My sweet darling: you are growing so quick. One day you’re an infant and the next you’re running. I want to nourish your mind, body, and soul. I sing and dance with you. I read to you. I bring you around environments and people that are positive in hopes that you absorb all of the goodness. I become overjoyed when we go to the bookstore and see you roaming around and picking at different books. I lost my love for reading years ago but for you I hope to find it again.
Emilia starting crawling last night. The past few weeks she would get up on her hands and knees and rock herself back me forth. I told everyone, “she’s going crawl in the next few weeks”. Then last night she made me cry for a good 5 minutes. She didn’t care to pay attention to me of course. She’s was too happy moving right along. I picked her up and gave her a tight hug.
I was looking at old photos and was admiring how big and beautiful she’s gotten these last 8 months. There is just something about seeing her crawl last night that forced me to propel myself into the future to an older Emilia. To me, crawling, was the start of her really growing up. She’s so smart, determined, sassy, sweet.
I can’t get over last night. I keep replaying it in my head (and on my phone). Being a parent has its days of frustration and stresses but ultimately it’s such a beautiful thing to watch your child learn, grow, and discover.
Emilia attended her friend’s first birthday party yesterday. It’s still surreal to me that I am a mommy to a baby girl who is going to turn one in a few months. A mommy to a baby girl who is already attending her friend’s birthday party. Times seems to have flown by yet I was still able to embrace and enjoy every single moment.
I’m already starting to plan her first birthday party. HER FIRST BIRTHDAY PARTY!
All glory is given to God for such a beautiful life. So thankful to be able to find light even in my darkest moments.
I was chosen to be your mommy. Forever I will be your mommy. I will go to the ends of the earth to defend my right to be your mommy. I will protect you to the best of my abilities because I am your mommy. When you have your first booboo I will be there to kiss it and make it better, because I am your mommy. As your mommy I will love you through the good, the bad, and the ugly. As your mommy I will pray for you every morning and night. As your mommy I will look to the Lord to guide you through this world. I will try my best to protect you from the Devils in this world because I am your mommy. I will be your shield in times of hardship because I am your mommy. As your mommy I will practice unconditional love. As your mommy I will teach you how to be a strong woman, an intelligent and witty woman, and a woman of God.
And just like how I’ll always be your mommy, you will always be my babygirl.